That time of the month

That time of the month can be a girl's worst enemy. Not only does it makes a girl goes extremely cranky and insecure, it can also gives her the pain that she does not need.

Perhaps due to the consistent consuming of medicines ever since the start of the work ( muscle aches and headaches, flu, cough and sore throat ), it pushes back the period and make me ever more nerve wrecking that usual.

Senses more alert at the wrong time possible and concentration on stuff that are clearly should not even be in the top priority are draining me. Unable to board any transport when wanted, threw up yesterday, walked home in the rain twice in a row in 2 days are not exactly cheering me up either. Another colleague of mine left the work today, that marks like the 3rd or the 4th since I started work, is not very encouraging either.

Body clock is another one thing that is out to destroy whatever that is left of my sanity. 1st week woke up a couple of minutes before the alarm rings. Following gets earlier by a few more minutes to half an hour. Then sometime last week I woke up at 4am only to go back to sleep around 5am and woke up again when alarm rang. This week has just begin and I am waking up even earlier. Take this morning for example, I tossed and turned in bed around 5am plus ( cos when I peeked open my eyes, I was so damned sure that it was near 7am with the birds chirping outside and dare not go into deep sleep for fear I might oversleep ) and after tossing for like eternity, I finally took a look at my phone and it showed 5.40am. FML. I don't even know if I did sleep but I was ready to head out of bed when the alarm rang.

All these coming from someone who used to sleep in till 10am-12pm for almost 1 year. Is this some sort of retribution? I noticed if I sleep at 11.30pm, I will wake up at around 6.30am, and if I sleep at 12.30am or so, I will wake up at 5am plus. Something is definitely wrong here.

Sorry for all the ranting but I feel if I don't get all these negative thoughts out of me, I'd go crazy at some point of the time. And no one likes to hear negative stuff, so I can only vent it out here while envy those who are having the time of their life when I am at the bottom of the pit. Green eye monster is biting me hard. And what I wouldn't give to bite it back, returning double the poison it injects into me.