Fighting with "her" for my guy

If a gadget is a "she", then I guess I can understand why my dear's computer crashes on me so often.

First time round, which was like last year, the motherboard chose to crash on me when he was not around. And by he, I mean my boyfriend.

Today it is determined to give me the blue screen of death repeatedly.and yes, he is not around as well. And cos of it, I'm being blamed for crashing it. Talk about wrong place wrong time. And it did not even crash once when he was using it yesterday.

If the computer is a female, "she" must be a hell of a scheming girl to try to get me in trouble. Sigh... Even the computer wants to fight for my guy. Now I think I know why I hardly touch this computer, cos "she" will only creates trouble for me... =x

Having that said... Is my handphone consider as a "guy"? If so, will "he" be jealous of my boyfriend as well? Hmm... Food for thought... Signing out and hitting the sack now!

Interesting conversation

Usually if anyone were to discuss diamonds with me, it's usually my girl friends or maybe my in game friends talking to me about the "diamonds" in game.

But the person who broach me on this yesterday was none other than my dear. He was doing a little bit of research on diamonds and that sparks my curiosity.

Maybe after I get home tonight I may read up upon diamonds as well =p

Time for work.

That time of the month

That time of the month can be a girl's worst enemy. Not only does it makes a girl goes extremely cranky and insecure, it can also gives her the pain that she does not need.

Perhaps due to the consistent consuming of medicines ever since the start of the work ( muscle aches and headaches, flu, cough and sore throat ), it pushes back the period and make me ever more nerve wrecking that usual.

Senses more alert at the wrong time possible and concentration on stuff that are clearly should not even be in the top priority are draining me. Unable to board any transport when wanted, threw up yesterday, walked home in the rain twice in a row in 2 days are not exactly cheering me up either. Another colleague of mine left the work today, that marks like the 3rd or the 4th since I started work, is not very encouraging either.

Body clock is another one thing that is out to destroy whatever that is left of my sanity. 1st week woke up a couple of minutes before the alarm rings. Following gets earlier by a few more minutes to half an hour. Then sometime last week I woke up at 4am only to go back to sleep around 5am and woke up again when alarm rang. This week has just begin and I am waking up even earlier. Take this morning for example, I tossed and turned in bed around 5am plus ( cos when I peeked open my eyes, I was so damned sure that it was near 7am with the birds chirping outside and dare not go into deep sleep for fear I might oversleep ) and after tossing for like eternity, I finally took a look at my phone and it showed 5.40am. FML. I don't even know if I did sleep but I was ready to head out of bed when the alarm rang.

All these coming from someone who used to sleep in till 10am-12pm for almost 1 year. Is this some sort of retribution? I noticed if I sleep at 11.30pm, I will wake up at around 6.30am, and if I sleep at 12.30am or so, I will wake up at 5am plus. Something is definitely wrong here.

Sorry for all the ranting but I feel if I don't get all these negative thoughts out of me, I'd go crazy at some point of the time. And no one likes to hear negative stuff, so I can only vent it out here while envy those who are having the time of their life when I am at the bottom of the pit. Green eye monster is biting me hard. And what I wouldn't give to bite it back, returning double the poison it injects into me.

What a day... Tomorrow hopefully will be better

Aside from tons of stuff to remember, lunch not agreeing with my tummy, a major headache and walking home from work, I thought "Things might be getting better from now on."

Famous last words... Ended up feeling nauseous and having severe headache while lying in bed for a good 1 hour plus ( despite me taking in panadol and applying medicated oil ) before forcing myself to get a shower, which resulted me in throwing up whatever I had for lunch a good 7 hours or more ago.

But after that, I was feeling a tiny little bit better. And replying the miss call from dear ( just hearing his voice ) is making me feeling much better. And the one that hit the spot is the warm hot macaroni soup that ease all the nasty nauseous feeling in the awful tummy.

I can't say I am feeling 100% better but at least enough for me to feel more confident in facing work tomorrow, not with dread ( definitely not very eagerly of cos ) but at least, and hopefully, not with a sick body...

Sick

Monday arrived and I woken up only to be greeted by sore throat and blocked nose. And I knew my day was going to be wasted...

Had to call in sick at work and wasted near 3 hours to see doctor. Rest of the day went by in a blur. More like I was sleeping the whole day away.

When I finally did wake up again, I felt as if I am burning up. Follow by lots of negative thoughts... Times like this I wish I'm working. Those dark eye rings and eye bags refuse to leave me...

If I earn $1 for every negative thought I have or had, I'd probably be billionaire or maybe even richer. Hey, I'm sort of a pessimistic kind of person.

However I make an effort to change. If I'm feeling down, I try to see something good, like I get to rest more or something like that.

And my brother gave me a gift he brought back from Japan, a yukata, though I do not have the time to try it on yet, but it looks pretty...

Time to sleep again! Hope I wake up bright eyes and bushy tail ( pardon the pun ) and in a much better condition to work!