Random things for the past few days

Hmm... Still trying to think where to start...

I have been on the job for like almost 1 month. Sure, I have seen people came and left, some on the job not more than 1 month, but I also having quite a busy time, though, it is still consider relatively easy ( I would like it better without the daily headache, body and limbs aches, especially that pain that's bothering my left arm for around 2 weeks or more? ), perhaps it is still the honeymoon period. Once I get to "really start" work, I might be singing a different tune.

It amuses me to see people guessing my nationality and my age, and more often than not, like maybe 90% of the time ( 100% in fact for my age ) that they will guess wrongly. Whenever they asked me how old I am, I am always ready with the question "How old do YOU think I am?"

Its funny to see their reaction when I tell them how old I really am. They always go "OMG? You do not look like that age at all!"

Well, I think the reason behind that is, I don't feel like my age. Hell, I don't even ACT like my age. Who says older people needs to be more mature? I can be mature, depending on situations of course.

And my boss doesn't looks like his age either, though he is quite nice, you don't often see a boss buying random breakfast for his employees do you? But he does, now and then, though I don't usually accept, blame it on my weak tummy which will make me hurl or run to the loo if I have too greasy or spicy food in the morning.

Just now as I was about to board the bus to head home, I met another amusing person. An uncle to be exact. Boarding a bus to work and home is like a war. You have to push and shove to get in. But thankfully there were two buses so the second bus was not too crowded. I was about to board when I saw the uncle behind me. I gestured him to board first, trying to be gentlemanly/polite, but he replied in a light jokingly manner "It's ok! China girls can board first too!"

I laughed and asked "China girls?" and he replied "Malaysians girls can too board the bus!"

I smiled throughout the journey home. This is the first time someone think of me as a girl from China. My mandarin is not that fantastic, and my pronunciation can do with lots more improvement. I'd even say, I don't usually read in mandarin unless its manga or anime! Though if anyone were to have a conversation with me, they'd know straight away there's no way I am from China. C'mon, I probably have a proper conversation in mandarin without peppered that with English... But still, its interesting to think people think I am not local =p

Time to sit back and relax and watch "Super model me!" Whee~ Random ending here~

Weird dream

This morning had a weird dream. Dreamt that one of my friend had a job that offer 2k salary. Weird part is I was told the job is "curator" or "recurator", that it's for people who used to be in army or something like that.

When I woke up, naturally I went to find the meaning of curator which means a person that got to do with museum, and there is no such words as recurator.

Still thinking what the dream means, perhaps it's the reason why I can still remember so clearly...

When feeling a certain way...

Initially I was feeling a little bit down, then I realized that different people may have different effect on others.

After working in this new company, there's mixed feelings. Happy cos I am finally rid myself of the panic attack and diarrhea problems, not to mention having a stable income albeit its low. But on the other hand, it does creates a certain inconvenient situation as well. That in turns leads to me feeling a bit down. It does brings back some unwanted thoughts, almost similar to those when I was in depression, but not quite the same as well.

But then I thought of my boyfriend and how we started out. How things were and how I felt back then. At times I know I have taken him for granted. And how sweet he is when things goes really bad for me. He may be a bit tough to take but everything he does, he does it, usually, with a good reason. And mostly for me, for the future and things like that.

Right now, for unknown/unfounded reason, I can't seem to shake off a certain feeling. It's annoying cos it's preventing me from resting ( need to wake up early for work ), but I am trying my best to find out what is it. Is it due to work? Cos my whole body, first shoulders, then back, now legs and to my heels and ankles are sore and aching, and I got a bad feeling I am gonna be robot like cos of all the stiffness I am feeling now. Its so overwhelming.

Yesterday missed 3 buses cos they were fulled and the bus driver refused to stop and I walked to work from home and reached there with barely 1 minute to spare. Today same situation except this time I flagged down a cab and reached with 5 minutes to spare. Don't make me start going on how I am gonna be on my feet whole day tomorrow, the day after and the day after that.

I am praying that I can make it to work on time tomorrow by riding on the bus. Trying to keep my expenses low now. Hmm, I think I am getting tired cos I kept on misspelling. Pray I can rest well too... May everyone have a sweet dreams and be happy all day long~!