Looking out at the weather right now, the whole sky seems to be covered in grey clouds. Then it dawned on me. My mood is as dark, if not, darker than the sky out there.
It appears that everytime when I read or see something that pissed me off, it always happens after my mood has gone down the bad mood region.
Not surprising to say, I am in no mood for anything but having deep dark thoughts for those who infuriated me.
Then I began to wonder, if I am really that evil?
My only answer to that is, it depends. On how angry I am, how upset I become, and who is the person in question that is involved, directly or indirectly for my... volcanic temper.
Makes me think back of a testimonial that my belove Deborah sis had wrote once about me.
She said I had an explosive personality and if gotten mad, its like bomb going off. Can't deny about that and after all these years, this side of me still stays.
Sigh, I will tolerate more for half an hour at least then time to head off...
Friday, December 31, 2010
Last day of this year!
Wow... So fast another year's been gone... I couldn't even put all my thoughts into words fast enough...
It almost become the last day of my life too.
Thanks to a stupid truck driver.
As I was heading to work about a few hours ago, I walked the path I always do. Cross the overhead bridge, past the Post Office and cutting through the carpark before walking another path down to the place I worked.
As I was walking through the carpark, a truck swerve towards me, missing me by only inches. The wind blew my hair and the ends of my hair touched the mirror of the truck! =.="
FML. And that idiot driver did not even stop to apologise and continue to drive on. In fact I think if I walked any slower, he probably would have knock me down. I was busy cursing him silently that I didn't take note of the number of the plate on the truck.
But if he stopped, I most probably punched him in the face anyway. I hate being frightened for nothing. If I am anymore evil than I am now, I would have cursed him to have him crushed and trapped in the truck for hours before help arrive and that he would die on the way to hospital. Let him suffer before death.
Though, since this is the last day of the year, I shall not be so evil, I will say goodbye to 2010 and wish a Happy New Year to all~ ( And may those reckless drivers be caught and imprisoned and all rapists had their little brothers chopped off or rotted off~)
I never say I am not evil, just not so evil. *Evil smirk*
It almost become the last day of my life too.
Thanks to a stupid truck driver.
As I was heading to work about a few hours ago, I walked the path I always do. Cross the overhead bridge, past the Post Office and cutting through the carpark before walking another path down to the place I worked.
As I was walking through the carpark, a truck swerve towards me, missing me by only inches. The wind blew my hair and the ends of my hair touched the mirror of the truck! =.="
FML. And that idiot driver did not even stop to apologise and continue to drive on. In fact I think if I walked any slower, he probably would have knock me down. I was busy cursing him silently that I didn't take note of the number of the plate on the truck.
But if he stopped, I most probably punched him in the face anyway. I hate being frightened for nothing. If I am anymore evil than I am now, I would have cursed him to have him crushed and trapped in the truck for hours before help arrive and that he would die on the way to hospital. Let him suffer before death.
Though, since this is the last day of the year, I shall not be so evil, I will say goodbye to 2010 and wish a Happy New Year to all~ ( And may those reckless drivers be caught and imprisoned and all rapists had their little brothers chopped off or rotted off~)
I never say I am not evil, just not so evil. *Evil smirk*
Friday, December 24, 2010
Heavy stuff... Sorry if I sound violent...
Nope, I don't mean physically but mentally.
Was browsing the web at random as usual and came upon to a website. It's called Rape Survivor, Journey of self discovery and help... http://www.rape.co.za
The stories in there were more horrifying than anything I read before. Because they are/were real. Because these women suffered from their so-called close friends/relatives/soulmates. Some even from strangers.
These women, trying their best to grow strong for they had been weakened, bullied, made used of by those rapists. Some grew stronger but most turned weaker, with suicidal thoughts.
It saddens me that such things should occured and for the first time, I am grateful for my country's protection for women, as rapists DO NOT and WILL NOT be tolerated nor gotten scott free here.
Many, if not all, live for years in shame, embarrasement but the fault is not theirs! Whoever that said they deserve it for wearing sluttishly, or get themselves drunk or drugged or stupid enough to follow blindly with those men, let me asked you this. Will you think, if one day, your sister, cousin, close friends OR EVEN THE LOVE OF YOUR LIFE, get raped, will you still think that she deserved it? ( Assuming of cos that you ain't that rapist. )
I had many emotions ( sadness, anger, hatred to the rapists ) running within me after reading each story, and I wished those rapists could be put to justice. Wishing that they will be ( I won't use would be ) castrated. That they lived forever in jail, getting raped by other psycho rapists in the prison and getting a hell of a beating at the same time. But I think for the victims, they would most likely wished that those rapists are dead. Or better yet, for them to turn back the time and erased the dreaded incident that killed their poor souls, ruined their dignities.
It irks me to know some of these horrid creatures are still allowed to roam freely, searching for the next victim. I won't curse or wish anything bad to the rapist's family ( it will degrade me to their level ), but I will curse them, for their "little brothers" to rot away, painfully at that, or to be severed off, bit by bit, so they can feel the fear and pain that they had inflicted to their victims. Even when they begged for sorry, no mercy shall be shown, for they had given none to their victims.
I had read that some prisons do not put rapists in the same jailroom with the other convicts ( such as robberies and murders ) for they would be beaten badly, if not, to death, by these other convicts. Why? Cos even though these people commit crimes, they do not tolerate rapists.
At the ending note, I'll just say to the victims, stay strong, you ain't alone, for you have other people who really, sincerely care for you. Do not ever think that its your fault or you deserved it, for no one deserved to go through such fate. Do not think of yourself as a shameful person, or anything negative, for you are not.
The ones that should be condemned is not you but the beast that attacked you. You have as much rights to stay alive, as much right to look for a better future and if anyone should die, its the beast and not you...
Was browsing the web at random as usual and came upon to a website. It's called Rape Survivor, Journey of self discovery and help... http://www.rape.co.za
The stories in there were more horrifying than anything I read before. Because they are/were real. Because these women suffered from their so-called close friends/relatives/soulmates. Some even from strangers.
These women, trying their best to grow strong for they had been weakened, bullied, made used of by those rapists. Some grew stronger but most turned weaker, with suicidal thoughts.
It saddens me that such things should occured and for the first time, I am grateful for my country's protection for women, as rapists DO NOT and WILL NOT be tolerated nor gotten scott free here.
Many, if not all, live for years in shame, embarrasement but the fault is not theirs! Whoever that said they deserve it for wearing sluttishly, or get themselves drunk or drugged or stupid enough to follow blindly with those men, let me asked you this. Will you think, if one day, your sister, cousin, close friends OR EVEN THE LOVE OF YOUR LIFE, get raped, will you still think that she deserved it? ( Assuming of cos that you ain't that rapist. )
I had many emotions ( sadness, anger, hatred to the rapists ) running within me after reading each story, and I wished those rapists could be put to justice. Wishing that they will be ( I won't use would be ) castrated. That they lived forever in jail, getting raped by other psycho rapists in the prison and getting a hell of a beating at the same time. But I think for the victims, they would most likely wished that those rapists are dead. Or better yet, for them to turn back the time and erased the dreaded incident that killed their poor souls, ruined their dignities.
It irks me to know some of these horrid creatures are still allowed to roam freely, searching for the next victim. I won't curse or wish anything bad to the rapist's family ( it will degrade me to their level ), but I will curse them, for their "little brothers" to rot away, painfully at that, or to be severed off, bit by bit, so they can feel the fear and pain that they had inflicted to their victims. Even when they begged for sorry, no mercy shall be shown, for they had given none to their victims.
I had read that some prisons do not put rapists in the same jailroom with the other convicts ( such as robberies and murders ) for they would be beaten badly, if not, to death, by these other convicts. Why? Cos even though these people commit crimes, they do not tolerate rapists.
At the ending note, I'll just say to the victims, stay strong, you ain't alone, for you have other people who really, sincerely care for you. Do not ever think that its your fault or you deserved it, for no one deserved to go through such fate. Do not think of yourself as a shameful person, or anything negative, for you are not.
The ones that should be condemned is not you but the beast that attacked you. You have as much rights to stay alive, as much right to look for a better future and if anyone should die, its the beast and not you...
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Christmas in 2 days time
Perhaps due to too many colleagues clearing leaves ( well, it is the end of the year already ) and warm afternoon, with monotonous humming from the machines and the long waiting for the results of the tests, not to mention the sucky internet connection as well, I am getting drowsy again.
Had trouble keep myself awake * Tried to keep myself awake but found that my eyelid just closed after some time *
Can't wait to leave for home!!!
I have a lots of things I want, but I have no wishlist for Santa. Cos I want soooo much that I doubt Santa can give them all to me =x
If really needed to create a wish, I wish Santa to give me either A) A Time Machine or the ability to control time or B) A Genie or C) I want to be Santa's friend ( Good excuse for a holiday but to North Pole seems a little too cold ).
I'd like to be rich as well but being rich... Probably comes with lots of worries and not to mention more irritating people.
So what I want now? Just to go home and rest...
Had trouble keep myself awake * Tried to keep myself awake but found that my eyelid just closed after some time *
Can't wait to leave for home!!!
I have a lots of things I want, but I have no wishlist for Santa. Cos I want soooo much that I doubt Santa can give them all to me =x
If really needed to create a wish, I wish Santa to give me either A) A Time Machine or the ability to control time or B) A Genie or C) I want to be Santa's friend ( Good excuse for a holiday but to North Pole seems a little too cold ).
I'd like to be rich as well but being rich... Probably comes with lots of worries and not to mention more irritating people.
So what I want now? Just to go home and rest...
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Starting out early!
This is probably one of the rare times that I arrived at work on a normal working day with no one around!
Arrived extremely early due to some testing to be done that might take hours at that... Heh heh... I even arrived earlier than my bosses and supervisors =p
Well, with the test running, now I have nothing to do till the test is done, so I am going for a long blog!
Around 11th December, went out with Ray's friends for... Crabs and KTV~ *Loves~*
Opps... only remembered to take photo after almost done with the food bleah =p As usual~
We had like 4 female crabs ( cos there's no more male crabs ), and they were delicious! 2 Butter Crabs, 1 Chilli Crab and 1 Bee hoon Crab... *Tummy growling...*
Hmm... Good food is a bad topic for my tummy now... To the next topic!
12th December we went to the Singapore Toy Games & Comics Conventions! a.k.a STGCC~
There, I didn't bluff you wahaha....
Upon crossing the entrance ( The tickets were charged at S$15 for normal price, S$13 if you have Passion Card, Safra etc... Still... It's horribly expensive! ), they stamped a robot on your arm after they took your ticket as a proof that you had paid and began stuffing you with brochures and a round capsule with some toys in it... I have yet open my capsule =x
The Simpsons~
O.o Iron man?! In half???!!!
Some cute dragon look-a-like...
This is a booth where they encourage people to go in and add in voice to the cartoons/animes.
I tripped while walking past here.
One of the banners in there~
Found this poster particularly adorable... But I am not hentai!!!
Lots of toys and figurines...
Can you spot the ultra huge Fantastic 4 figurine?
After that there was a place with lots of display figurines...
Oh.My.God! It's Cloud~! ♥
There was the other guy as well, Stephrioph or something ( can't be bother to google ) but cos alot of crazy fanatics were using huge cameras to take and blocked me... Ray and his friend CX rushing to walk ahead doesn't helps either... *Grumble*
Lucky Star~
Forget what is this, but saw many people cosplay as the green long hair lady in the middle.
Aww... So cute~
Conan figurine~
Some kind of brand or something by the name of "I love doodoo dolls".
All sorts of people cosplaying there and there's a famous(?) anime artist around giving signatures and drawings to the people there... Long queue and guess who is in the queue?
Ahahahaha! Someone cosplaying as a Death Note's book is queueing to get the drawing! =p Perhaps the artist might draw on the book! But he'd probably be suiciding if he tried to sign his own name in =p
Watching tornaments... Asiasoft is there and there's like MFO and Audition tornament going on.
The bag from "I love doodoo doll". This was funny, as we were waiting for Kelvin, who disappeared among the crowd almost as soon as we entered, there came an announcement.
"Hi, we will be giving out special doodoo bag to the first 100 people at the redemption counter. Please proceed to the redemption counter now~ "
Before I can even register what was said, I saw Ray looking around in a hurry and said,"Where is the counter?? Ah! There it is, hurry go go! "
I tried to follow him but saw a whole crowd of people and CX said "Your dear machiam like an auntie lol! See he run so fast!"
I shrugged and joined in the queue and got this =p Ray got his before me and when he saw me still queueing, he said I am slow =.="
But I bought a few things there as well!!
Kitty ears and tail~!
Closer look of the ears~
Meow~ my paw~!
Cute!!
Ahh... as I was walking in Suntec, after heading out from the STGCC ( I was still wearing the cat paw and pawing at Ray occasionally with the "paw" hand while holding him with my free hand ), I felt someone hitting my "paw".
Turned and saw a 2-3 years old little gal. She was patting my paw like what she probably would have done to a real kitty and giggling all the way. I pretended to paw at her and she squealed in delight to her mummy and said "Mommy, kitty playing with me!"
Opps, did I forget to take of my kitty ears as well? Haha... Well, being a kitty for one day was fun!!!
Some pretty Xmas decoration in Suntec~
Ah... Finally, more and more colleagues coming in... Time to check on my work now~!
Arrived extremely early due to some testing to be done that might take hours at that... Heh heh... I even arrived earlier than my bosses and supervisors =p
Well, with the test running, now I have nothing to do till the test is done, so I am going for a long blog!
Around 11th December, went out with Ray's friends for... Crabs and KTV~ *Loves~*
Opps... only remembered to take photo after almost done with the food bleah =p As usual~
We had like 4 female crabs ( cos there's no more male crabs ), and they were delicious! 2 Butter Crabs, 1 Chilli Crab and 1 Bee hoon Crab... *Tummy growling...*
Hmm... Good food is a bad topic for my tummy now... To the next topic!
12th December we went to the Singapore Toy Games & Comics Conventions! a.k.a STGCC~
There, I didn't bluff you wahaha....
Upon crossing the entrance ( The tickets were charged at S$15 for normal price, S$13 if you have Passion Card, Safra etc... Still... It's horribly expensive! ), they stamped a robot on your arm after they took your ticket as a proof that you had paid and began stuffing you with brochures and a round capsule with some toys in it... I have yet open my capsule =x
The Simpsons~
O.o Iron man?! In half???!!!
Some cute dragon look-a-like...
This is a booth where they encourage people to go in and add in voice to the cartoons/animes.
I tripped while walking past here.
One of the banners in there~
Found this poster particularly adorable... But I am not hentai!!!
Lots of toys and figurines...
Can you spot the ultra huge Fantastic 4 figurine?
After that there was a place with lots of display figurines...
Oh.My.God! It's Cloud~! ♥
There was the other guy as well, Stephrioph or something ( can't be bother to google ) but cos alot of crazy fanatics were using huge cameras to take and blocked me... Ray and his friend CX rushing to walk ahead doesn't helps either... *Grumble*
Lucky Star~
Forget what is this, but saw many people cosplay as the green long hair lady in the middle.
Aww... So cute~
Conan figurine~
Some kind of brand or something by the name of "I love doodoo dolls".
All sorts of people cosplaying there and there's a famous(?) anime artist around giving signatures and drawings to the people there... Long queue and guess who is in the queue?
Ahahahaha! Someone cosplaying as a Death Note's book is queueing to get the drawing! =p Perhaps the artist might draw on the book! But he'd probably be suiciding if he tried to sign his own name in =p
Watching tornaments... Asiasoft is there and there's like MFO and Audition tornament going on.
The bag from "I love doodoo doll". This was funny, as we were waiting for Kelvin, who disappeared among the crowd almost as soon as we entered, there came an announcement.
"Hi, we will be giving out special doodoo bag to the first 100 people at the redemption counter. Please proceed to the redemption counter now~ "
Before I can even register what was said, I saw Ray looking around in a hurry and said,"Where is the counter?? Ah! There it is, hurry go go! "
I tried to follow him but saw a whole crowd of people and CX said "Your dear machiam like an auntie lol! See he run so fast!"
I shrugged and joined in the queue and got this =p Ray got his before me and when he saw me still queueing, he said I am slow =.="
But I bought a few things there as well!!
Kitty ears and tail~!
Closer look of the ears~
Meow~ my paw~!
Cute!!
Ahh... as I was walking in Suntec, after heading out from the STGCC ( I was still wearing the cat paw and pawing at Ray occasionally with the "paw" hand while holding him with my free hand ), I felt someone hitting my "paw".
Turned and saw a 2-3 years old little gal. She was patting my paw like what she probably would have done to a real kitty and giggling all the way. I pretended to paw at her and she squealed in delight to her mummy and said "Mommy, kitty playing with me!"
Opps, did I forget to take of my kitty ears as well? Haha... Well, being a kitty for one day was fun!!!
Some pretty Xmas decoration in Suntec~
Ah... Finally, more and more colleagues coming in... Time to check on my work now~!
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Finally in mood to blog! ( Having time helps too~ )
After finishing up all my workloads plus some additionals stuff ( and on rare occasion that I am actually feeling well! *Ignore the stupid whining pain from my left knee * ) I am back blogging with pictures heh heh...
Of cos I won't bombard a few weeks worth of photos in one blog. It will be too much ( for me to take that is ).
Let's see...where should I start...?
Hmm a random outing with friends on 27th November!
Yup! At Wendy's! Hee... This was taken with my dear while his friend was queueing for food! Can't remember why we were out though... *Memories are failing me...Noo....*
Pretty Xmas decorations at Orchard Road!
I want to make it into a necklace! *Bling bling~*
Ahh... I remembered... We were supposed to meet Ray's friends in Orchard Road! But can't remember much after that though... For food perhaps? I only remember Chaos papa long gone before we arrived...
O.o Merlion doughtnut?
Whatever will they come out next??!! Hmm... Slight memories flashes before me... Max and Dianielle soon left for there isn't enough space at the KFC and Bernard, Kelvin, Ray dear and me ate the KFC for dinner before heading home... Weird... We didn't do anything that day? Hmm...
Some pretty tree in Takashima! Well... Shiny at least, enough to catch my attention.
But 28th November wasn't really a good day, had an arguement with my dear which results me in throwing a fine temper and him as well. But something caught my attention!
Unicorn!!!
Cute little animals!
Bambi look-a-like!
Penguin!
Er...Polar bear?!
Lol... Saw all these cute stuff hanging at the ceiling of Swensens * Yea I was fuming then I kept on staring at the ceiling and the cute little unicorn caught my attention *
Lazy kitty!
Refused to wake up even when I mewed at it *Pfff....!*
Aww... How can I stand staying mad at such a fat cat??!!
I shall end off with my latest purchase!
Yesterday received news that my new bag is coming! Bought from www.minimaos.com ~
I am a little skeptical cos been waiting for a week plus or so for it ( cos its restocking ) and I must admit, this is probably the first time I bought something online. And after reading so much about online scammings, or that the goods don't look like the one in the pictures etc... I was wondering if I did the right thing buying it...
The package! *Shudders in fear and excitement~*
Viola! Its the same as the one in the webbie!!! * Loves~~~ *
Equally cute and identical to the one I had seen online heeheehee... All I can say is, its a money well-spent! At least for me! Bleah =p
It cost around S$56 but including shipment fee so its S$63 but I quite like it. Sort of a Xmas gift for myself =p ( Lol! I just noticed they set it as $50 now, maybe cos of xmas discount? But I still don't regret buying it hahaha )
But speaking of buying, I have been having a weird habit of late. I *drools* over cute/ lacey/ chiffon type of clothes and tempted to buy them but didn't due to lack of cash. Then give me another 1-2 weeks time, or even a couple of days, I start to lose interest in them. Not as captivated to them as before. I have no idea what is wrong with me either.
But this could be a great way of saving money I supposed... The only things on my list to buy are:
- Bag for my mummy
- Present for Ying
- Maybe a working bag for myself
Though I know Chinese New Year is approaching but no clothes tempted me enough to want them... Perhaps way later then... * But why do I suddenly like lace clothes? I used to not like them alot lol!!! *
Of cos I won't bombard a few weeks worth of photos in one blog. It will be too much ( for me to take that is ).
Let's see...where should I start...?
Hmm a random outing with friends on 27th November!
Yup! At Wendy's! Hee... This was taken with my dear while his friend was queueing for food! Can't remember why we were out though... *Memories are failing me...Noo....*
Pretty Xmas decorations at Orchard Road!
I want to make it into a necklace! *Bling bling~*
Ahh... I remembered... We were supposed to meet Ray's friends in Orchard Road! But can't remember much after that though... For food perhaps? I only remember Chaos papa long gone before we arrived...
O.o Merlion doughtnut?
Whatever will they come out next??!! Hmm... Slight memories flashes before me... Max and Dianielle soon left for there isn't enough space at the KFC and Bernard, Kelvin, Ray dear and me ate the KFC for dinner before heading home... Weird... We didn't do anything that day? Hmm...
Some pretty tree in Takashima! Well... Shiny at least, enough to catch my attention.
But 28th November wasn't really a good day, had an arguement with my dear which results me in throwing a fine temper and him as well. But something caught my attention!
Unicorn!!!
Cute little animals!
Bambi look-a-like!
Penguin!
Er...Polar bear?!
Lol... Saw all these cute stuff hanging at the ceiling of Swensens * Yea I was fuming then I kept on staring at the ceiling and the cute little unicorn caught my attention *
Lazy kitty!
Refused to wake up even when I mewed at it *Pfff....!*
Aww... How can I stand staying mad at such a fat cat??!!
I shall end off with my latest purchase!
Yesterday received news that my new bag is coming! Bought from www.minimaos.com ~
I am a little skeptical cos been waiting for a week plus or so for it ( cos its restocking ) and I must admit, this is probably the first time I bought something online. And after reading so much about online scammings, or that the goods don't look like the one in the pictures etc... I was wondering if I did the right thing buying it...
The package! *Shudders in fear and excitement~*
Viola! Its the same as the one in the webbie!!! * Loves~~~ *
Equally cute and identical to the one I had seen online heeheehee... All I can say is, its a money well-spent! At least for me! Bleah =p
It cost around S$56 but including shipment fee so its S$63 but I quite like it. Sort of a Xmas gift for myself =p ( Lol! I just noticed they set it as $50 now, maybe cos of xmas discount? But I still don't regret buying it hahaha )
But speaking of buying, I have been having a weird habit of late. I *drools* over cute/ lacey/ chiffon type of clothes and tempted to buy them but didn't due to lack of cash. Then give me another 1-2 weeks time, or even a couple of days, I start to lose interest in them. Not as captivated to them as before. I have no idea what is wrong with me either.
But this could be a great way of saving money I supposed... The only things on my list to buy are:
- Bag for my mummy
- Present for Ying
- Maybe a working bag for myself
Though I know Chinese New Year is approaching but no clothes tempted me enough to want them... Perhaps way later then... * But why do I suddenly like lace clothes? I used to not like them alot lol!!! *
Monday, December 20, 2010
Emotions everchanging day.
Well, started off quite happy, before coming to work. But its short-lived as I realised that during the night I injured my left knee ( why am I not surprise? ) It's annoying since around 2 weeks ago, my right knee was hurting and I had finished the medication like last week?
But my right knee was fully recovered and I am praying that without medication, this annoying knee pain will subside soon but its seems to be growing in strength as the day goes on.
Then at work gotten a little busy and was frustrated for only a little while. Around 11am I received news that the bag I bought online is arriving * Happiness to the max~! *
Then its time for lunch, other than the long queue and annoying knee problem, I had a rather enjoyable lunch * Staring into space pretty often during lunch time *
Then its back to work and more work. Annoyed at some problem that I can't resolve, and the fact I had to walk quite a distance with a bad knee to seek for help. But its all worth it in the end. * Smiles~ (^.^)/) *
Then... something online that I saw made me see red.
My blood definately boiling mad.
So I've decided, in order to counter this sudden anger, I shall work OT today. Work takes things off my mind. Besides, the current stuff at work is on a tight deadline as well. Might as well do something productive to vent my hatred anger. And... the thought of additional money do works well at calming down my temper a little bit.
I have lots of fanciful profanities running through my head, but no, I won't degrade myself, at least I am not yet lost control.
P.S. To the people that have directly or indirectly made me lose my cool, I won't say anything, but I doubt you will like to know what I am thinking currently. Guess all you want but the answer will not be yours to know. * Evil smirk *
But my right knee was fully recovered and I am praying that without medication, this annoying knee pain will subside soon but its seems to be growing in strength as the day goes on.
Then at work gotten a little busy and was frustrated for only a little while. Around 11am I received news that the bag I bought online is arriving * Happiness to the max~! *
Then its time for lunch, other than the long queue and annoying knee problem, I had a rather enjoyable lunch * Staring into space pretty often during lunch time *
Then its back to work and more work. Annoyed at some problem that I can't resolve, and the fact I had to walk quite a distance with a bad knee to seek for help. But its all worth it in the end. * Smiles~ (^.^)/) *
Then... something online that I saw made me see red.
My blood definately boiling mad.
So I've decided, in order to counter this sudden anger, I shall work OT today. Work takes things off my mind. Besides, the current stuff at work is on a tight deadline as well. Might as well do something productive to vent my hatred anger. And... the thought of additional money do works well at calming down my temper a little bit.
I have lots of fanciful profanities running through my head, but no, I won't degrade myself, at least I am not yet lost control.
P.S. To the people that have directly or indirectly made me lose my cool, I won't say anything, but I doubt you will like to know what I am thinking currently. Guess all you want but the answer will not be yours to know. * Evil smirk *
Friday, December 17, 2010
IT'S FRIDAY~~~!!!
Looking forward to the weekends whee~
Later going out at night to KTV with Ray dear's sister and cousin ( I bet their dears will be going as well heehee ).
Not to mention my bag is coming next week! Totally excited to the max!
Actually, at the moment, I am extremely hungry... *Tummy growling mercilessly*
Spent the whole morning running here and there and looking for stuff that were left all over the place. *So angreeeyy!!*
As expected, another meeting coming up after lunch but thankfully its a short one so I will not ( cross my fingers hopefully ) sleep throughout the meeting =p
Ah... I will head off first, maybe I might blog a little bit more after lunch!
Later going out at night to KTV with Ray dear's sister and cousin ( I bet their dears will be going as well heehee ).
Not to mention my bag is coming next week! Totally excited to the max!
Actually, at the moment, I am extremely hungry... *Tummy growling mercilessly*
Spent the whole morning running here and there and looking for stuff that were left all over the place. *So angreeeyy!!*
As expected, another meeting coming up after lunch but thankfully its a short one so I will not ( cross my fingers hopefully ) sleep throughout the meeting =p
Ah... I will head off first, maybe I might blog a little bit more after lunch!
Thursday, December 16, 2010
Getting a little dizzy
Health... is definately not on the top of my list this week. With the knee injury occuring on last Friday, then rashes appeared sometime on last Sunday and this Monday, plus the constant tummy pain for the rest of the week and double dose of dizziness and headache since yesterday, can't exactly say my health is in a tip top condition right?
To top it off with, I had a couple of run in with my dear a few days back and today woke up late, tried to take cab, but due to a massive jam, I arrived the same time I would have if I had taken the bus and train and my wallet is $27.20 poorer.
By now, everyone would have think that I am in the dump, the worst of the worst kind of mood and wallowing in self pity. Yet I am able to smile. Why?
I have a sweet dear to help me hunt and apply medications on my rashes and the rashes are almost gone, received news that the bag I ordered should be arriving soon, my boss did not nag at me for being late and though I am cash strapped, the month is almost half way over. Not to mention xmas is coming!
Although I can't go on shopping spree, nor do I have the time to spend to relax and enjoy as usual, but at the very least I know I am needed and wanted and therefore my time is well spent. Who knows, perhaps all these overtime will pay off when I get my salary in a few weeks time ^.^
P.S. When the world tries to keep you down and fate is helping, ignore them and create your own happiness. I have every reasons to be miserable about. But I choose to make a little noise, forget it, take whatever remedies I have to and look at them and gave them a big smile in their face.
To top it off with, I had a couple of run in with my dear a few days back and today woke up late, tried to take cab, but due to a massive jam, I arrived the same time I would have if I had taken the bus and train and my wallet is $27.20 poorer.
By now, everyone would have think that I am in the dump, the worst of the worst kind of mood and wallowing in self pity. Yet I am able to smile. Why?
I have a sweet dear to help me hunt and apply medications on my rashes and the rashes are almost gone, received news that the bag I ordered should be arriving soon, my boss did not nag at me for being late and though I am cash strapped, the month is almost half way over. Not to mention xmas is coming!
Although I can't go on shopping spree, nor do I have the time to spend to relax and enjoy as usual, but at the very least I know I am needed and wanted and therefore my time is well spent. Who knows, perhaps all these overtime will pay off when I get my salary in a few weeks time ^.^
P.S. When the world tries to keep you down and fate is helping, ignore them and create your own happiness. I have every reasons to be miserable about. But I choose to make a little noise, forget it, take whatever remedies I have to and look at them and gave them a big smile in their face.
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
More and more meetings!
Yesterday: 1 meeting.
Today: 2 meetings.
Gee, I should probably learn by now that I should never wish for anything, cos they might just jolly ( pardon the pun, but its xmas season! ) well come true!
Just last week, I was wishing for a little bit more overtime so I can get a fatter salary by next month and guess what? Tonight's going to OT again!
I have been tempted to buy a couple of stuff but! One of them is for my dearest mummy! She likes a bag alot and its kinda on sale now, so I am still considering shipping it in, but since I am doing that, might as well get something I want along to make things cheaper right?
So by wanting to do so, I am looking at my flatter than ever bank account ='(
Every week I am counting how much I have left, and how much more to this and that and how much I can afford to spend. And to make up for all these expenses, I must work hard!!! Yup yup!
I can probably make crystal jewelries and sell online but abit lazy =x
We shall see as thing goes! Muackies to all my favourite ladies~
Today: 2 meetings.
Gee, I should probably learn by now that I should never wish for anything, cos they might just jolly ( pardon the pun, but its xmas season! ) well come true!
Just last week, I was wishing for a little bit more overtime so I can get a fatter salary by next month and guess what? Tonight's going to OT again!
I have been tempted to buy a couple of stuff but! One of them is for my dearest mummy! She likes a bag alot and its kinda on sale now, so I am still considering shipping it in, but since I am doing that, might as well get something I want along to make things cheaper right?
So by wanting to do so, I am looking at my flatter than ever bank account ='(
Every week I am counting how much I have left, and how much more to this and that and how much I can afford to spend. And to make up for all these expenses, I must work hard!!! Yup yup!
I can probably make crystal jewelries and sell online but abit lazy =x
We shall see as thing goes! Muackies to all my favourite ladies~
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Sorry for the lack of posts...
>.< As the title said, sorry for the lack of posts... I have been fallen ill and recover then knee injury and so on plus busy working till my head is spinning...
I do have tons of photos to post up on however!
That is... need to wait till I am feeling up and ready to get back in to the chippier side of me!!!
Feeling a little bit more upset than ever but hey, work often made me incapable of feeling anything but rushed. That's why I think work might be my new form of painkillers hahahaha...
Besides! If work more hours equates to more pay, and having a fat paycheck also lift my mood up considerably! So... according to my calculations...
More work = Free Painkillers ( means I don't need to see doctor and therefore no doctor fee )
multiply by Overtime pay = extremely happy me~
Yeah, I know, I must be sick in the head already. But actually its my tummy that's hurting now ( damn you tummy, stop whining and attacking me ).
Running to the toilet yesterday at every hour and was freaking ill. Today its hurting but at least I am not heading to the toilet, yet. Maybe by tomorrow I might recover!
I realised I changed alot since 2 years ago. 2 years back, I would take all kinds of reasons to just stay at home and rest. Right now, unless I am so sick till I had to be bed-ridden, I would even crawl to work if I have to.
Financial woe? That is just one small part of it. Not that I enjoy my work tremendously, but at least its something to take my mind off. Now I am wondering, after I paid off my study loans, what should I study? Continue where I left off before or venture into something new?
Decisions, decisions~
P.S. This is another thing I had changed, that is one decision I might actually love thinking through about and then putting it into actions.
I do have tons of photos to post up on however!
That is... need to wait till I am feeling up and ready to get back in to the chippier side of me!!!
Feeling a little bit more upset than ever but hey, work often made me incapable of feeling anything but rushed. That's why I think work might be my new form of painkillers hahahaha...
Besides! If work more hours equates to more pay, and having a fat paycheck also lift my mood up considerably! So... according to my calculations...
More work = Free Painkillers ( means I don't need to see doctor and therefore no doctor fee )
multiply by Overtime pay = extremely happy me~
Yeah, I know, I must be sick in the head already. But actually its my tummy that's hurting now ( damn you tummy, stop whining and attacking me ).
Running to the toilet yesterday at every hour and was freaking ill. Today its hurting but at least I am not heading to the toilet, yet. Maybe by tomorrow I might recover!
I realised I changed alot since 2 years ago. 2 years back, I would take all kinds of reasons to just stay at home and rest. Right now, unless I am so sick till I had to be bed-ridden, I would even crawl to work if I have to.
Financial woe? That is just one small part of it. Not that I enjoy my work tremendously, but at least its something to take my mind off. Now I am wondering, after I paid off my study loans, what should I study? Continue where I left off before or venture into something new?
Decisions, decisions~
P.S. This is another thing I had changed, that is one decision I might actually love thinking through about and then putting it into actions.
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